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Prozzitries

Indira's Heart: A Prozzitry Collection (Areal Fiction)
has just been released.
What is Pozzitry
When you pick this
book up and sit down to read you will wonder as to what this Prozzitry is
supposed to be. This question will, of course, be answered by the pieces as
you read and reflect on them, however, still you would have liked the author
to have said something that offers some form of definition of the genre of
writing, which I am calling Prozzitry that will help you enjoy it better.
Prozzitry is a new
genre of writing that I started writing while at university studying
literature. I wrote a lot of these, initially calling them, The Blue Songs
of Solitude where an author always resides listening in and out. I never
thought and still do not do, that writing or art is a so called ‘democratic’
thing. Here the author must always be on his own for he does not live in
dormitories of communities rather lives in his own loneliness, his own
solitude even when in and among people and their festivities, fiestas and
fetes. Writing takes place, the most fundamental part of it, in this
solitude and this must always be the ocean on whose shore the author must
always take a walk and listen out. An author, a poet is a living iceberg
most of which stays outside the public domain spread and spreading deeper
and wider receiving the beats, pulses and rhythms of life’s continual
elaboration and there the connections are formed, branches and leaves are
spread and roots and antennas are directed deeper, wider, broader as far as
possible so that he can come up with something to offer. This living, thus,
is a business of singing the soul of solitude and one must not complain
about it. When one is sitting at a vacant theatre wishing to listen to the
orchestra of silence played out over the space and on the flow of air and
wind how must one then complain about this solitude!
The idea I was
trying out was to write a genre of creative writing that tries to create an
areal fiction by injecting it with a great deal of poetry, fairytale, a
childlike playfulness, fantasy, myths, ample imagination and using science
as a little salt and sweet to add some electromagnetism. In this we take the
premise that holds the view that in an infinite domain of this Universe with
infinite numbers of perpetually changing variables everything and anything
is logically possible.
I wrote a great
deal of these in the university days which, unfortunately, got all lost a
long time ago and in the process of writing a whole range of things,
Prozzitries got neglected until recently when I started writing them again.
And here they are in a collection.
This is fiction
and thus things are imaginary, however, like all other genres of creative
imaginative fictions, there are things in these pieces which might have
germinated from real life experiences but they are not by any means a
reproduction of memories but a creative recrafting of them so to suit the
purpose of any particular piece.
Now, one little
point about the voice in the Speaker: the Speaker is a fictitious ‘I’ and it
might, at times, share similar opinions or thoughts with the author, but
this ‘I’ is not the Author himself. This ‘I’ is an imaginary fictitious
being speaking to a fictitious imaginary reader who was expected to fit into
that character and read and respond to the speaker in whatever way he or she
can.
Thereby this You
to whom this I is speaking is also a fictitious character that will have to
be accepted by the reader who then will have to frame themselves into the
shoes of the ‘You’ to whom the I is speaking to and these two now forms the
theatre of this play which often is a monologue.
Here the Speaker
becomes an invisible voice when the reader reads the piece and by doing so
almost forces the Speaker to become the ‘You’ by forcing you to become ‘him’
or ‘her’!
Thus this fiction
is to force the reader to get out of themselves and experience these
realities and their unfoldings in territories and terminologies that are not
their everyday domain. This fiction is not meant to be sweet and chatty but
serious and deep and meant to take you to places where you would normally
not venture out. This is not the fiction of laid back reading but an active
work of imagination.
Whether they succeed
or not is a different matter but at least this is the aim. Prozzitry denies
the dictionaries of thoughts and ideas (ideonaries), words (dictionaries)
and of pictures (pictionaries). A lot of people talk about clichés as if
words are clichés, words are not so: thought out thoughts are, taught out
ideas are, postered images are, fed and drunk in cultural dosages are and
trained and crafted in ways and means of designed creativities are!
Prozzitry is not any
of this, at least, it tries not to be so.
The author hopes
that this work offers you a good, active and enjoyable experience of
reading: reading as gardening of thoughts, reading as ploughing the
mind-land, reading as learning to play a piano or a violin of your
imagination, reading as a means to liberate yourself from the comfort zones
of safety, predictability and defined, designed and distilled in diction and
daze hollowgram of a pointlessness.
Reading as if you
are capable of rising to risk and try touching the beauty’s exuberance and
sing the delightful lights and darkness of the truth and in the process have
a great uplifted spirit that soars in the areal liberate state of mind where
you command the body, mind, soul and their togetherness in the spirit that
tells you to sing and dance your utter and sheer humanity and celebrate its
abounding expressive magnanimity.
Munayem Mayenin
London
June 2008
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The Timean Maid
I am talking to you which I have been meaning to do for a long long
time, a very long time and when a man of time uses the word long you
must multiply it with a huge number to get a sense of its length since a
Timean Man is going to tell you the legend of time that will last as
long as time itself does which is quite longer a time after which it
will cease by going back into the ultimate time mothership, the
eternity. After the big bang, for this is what you call it, but we the
Eternity’s children manning the universe around objects wherever you
find them. Wherever there are objects there are centres around which
they are gravitating on a three directional speed and velocity forking
out axists, orbits and outerbits which means that they are spinning
around themselves, around their centre and around their bigger centre to
which their centre is doing the same: axists, orbits and outerbits which
will have their centres which in turn doing the same: axists, orbits and
outerbits and wherever this is happening, which is pretty much the case
universally, you are going to find time and thus we the children of
Eternity are all shapes, sizes and colours as you find humanity in so
many different colours, sizes and shapes.
This happens because of where we are, what matters, what anti matters,
what lights, what heats, what colds, what pressures, what rays, what
dusts, what gasses, what bursts, what winds, what weathers, what
magnetism, what powers, what energies, what fibres, what fabrics, what
gravities, what weights, what motional interactions, what waves and what
responses occurs when multiple and often infinite constantly changing
variables come to impact on the others.
Thus we are different but at the same time we are at the core the same
allowing space and objects to bloom through motion the way you are
trying to do the same. It is about letting things bloom for bloom is the
being, you see. Must you not forget this maxim whether you are a child
of man or eternity you must remember: the bloom is the being and the
bloom is the reason for this whole spectacle of this universe and
talking of the bloom, that is what prompted me to want to talk to you.
You see, the reason for the bloom is nothing else but only, only and the
only thing: love. One can not bloom unless they know what love is and we
the children of Eternity are no different and here comes the astounding
breathtaking and magnanimous Timean Maid, the Belle, the Belle, the only
the only Belle for me!
I have been searching for her, for her, for her alone, for I know she is
love and I need her to expound this bloom so that my being can occur
otherwise I will just mechanically march on and forward maniacally
getting worn out which is what you think of time and which is why you
are all so old in so young an age. For time to you is nothing but a
mechanical tick tock of a thing you call Clock. But the clock is no time
the way the water in your glass is no ocean! Your clock is the glass
that holds a little water of time and you forget the business of the
ocean!
Anyhow, let me carry on with my story for I do not expect to hold your
thin attention bucket for too long for you have no notion of what
Eternity is and thus you thinkwhere the Jubilee Line begins and ends
that is where London does as well as time. But let me tell you, as soon
as you know what time is you will forever spend entire of your being
living it and loving it turning all the stones and rocks and sands and
earths and everything else for that matter to locate that Timean Maid
and live and live and live more. You, I am afraid, do not understand
time and here I am not imparting any such skills or knowledge for one
has to hit the truth and get burst out as a spring to know what the
truth is for themselves. Thus it won’t help even if I draw you a diagram
of it. It simply won’t help at all. You will have to hit hard one day
onto the stone of truth and let the force of the hit burst you into a
spring and wet and light you with the beauty of it and you just sing
out!
So at the beginning of this beauty’s breaking out, this Belle, this
Timean Maid I come back for that is what I want to tell you about. I
found myself manning the timean space around Earth. All I was doing was
going round and round her as she span around on her axist, orbit and
outerbit. I noticed something about her. She was a clever woman, must I
admit for she knew the bloom was the being as she was deeply in love
with the Sun, unfortunately, for the Moon, for the poor bugger was lost
at the first dawn he had laid his silver eye on her. Poor Moon! He had
nothing, no lights of his and he had no means to reach or come anywhere
near her. And yet he found a way to sing to her every day and every
night. He used her lover’s lights and made music out his being by
becoming a mirror reflecting back all the lights and the earth
eventually became half in love with the moon for half of her always
looking at the Sun adoring and adorning him while the other half is
doing the same to the Moon.
I was on the other hand going round and round, walking and walking with
my thinking holds made of two pieces of woods. I would walk and walk and
walk more and I was young and I was getting all marked by differing
weathers, differing landscapes, even differing gravitational pulls on
differing levels of altitudes. Thus as I walked through this haze of
differing circumstances I began to change shapes and colours for the
impact of weathers and in places I became pale, what people call white,
sharper pale or white and lighter pale or white, burnt white, burnt
brown-white, in places brown, sharper brown, lighter brown, in other
places I became dark, darker and deeper darker more what earth people
call black. But I learnt what a fuss they make of this without knowing a
thing about what it is that made people become like that!
Anyhow, as I grew I begun to learn and understand things better as you
all do too. I begun to notice the solar eclipses and lunar eclipses
which occur in regular intervals and I realised why they happened which
I had not understood when I was younger. This is the time when these
celestial lovers make connections to rejuvenate their affection and
love. I remember in one of those lunar eclipses I asked the moon why
these eclipses were necessary and he smiled and explained everything.
But what he told me had blown me over for he seemed to have known more
about my destiny than anybody else, well, surely he had known more than
what I ever did. He told me that I was destined to find my reason for
bloom on earth who was supposed to be a Timean Maid, a Belle. In fact,
he said, she would be the Belle. I was destined to find her and he told
me how magnanimous she would be.
Ever since I have been searching her and it seems she had been searching
me too. Only I realised after a long long time singing songs of longing,
love and despairs that she was ahead of me searching me assuming that
she would find me ahead of her. Since the earth was round and we were
going round and round on this circular paths both of us was ahead and
behind each other at the same time.
It took me a long time to realise that I would, I would, I would never
meet her for she and I are always chasing each other. But that happened
long before you people created the Meridian line which helped us follow
the course of the earth better for everything now was marked and
specified.
They even offered me a Residence at Greenwich Observatory which I
refused to take for I have been a runner, a traveller and I have now
been in love with Belle who kept singing and calling me only I would
catch their disappearing glances like lighting rainbows. I wanted to
carry on singing to her and searching and seeking her and if I stayed
inside this dome it was not going to help me.
So I carried on routing my route and singing to my Belle who I would
only see in my dreams and I would make music and sing them to the skies
and winds hoping they would take them to her. I would send the wind to
take her my love and longings for her. And I would know when they came
back with fragrances of her body, mind and soul. Partly those songs of
my love for Belle, my longings, my pining for her contributed towards
the seasons you see and enjoy.
But one day it occurred to me that I would have to simply stop following
the meridian line and locate myself somewhere from where surely I could
see Belle passing me where I could stop her and seek an audience with
her to just give myself out for she was the queen, my queen, my
magnanimous, my reason for the bloom and the being.
Then a friend of mine, you know him, History told me about the Taj Mahal
and I liked the idea of making a Taj Mahal. But the problem for me was
we the children of Eternity cannot build things for we only carry our
eyes catches and treasure them in our being. So I thought hard and
decided the best thing for me to find a home by The River Thames and
what a better place than finding yourself a home at The Big Ben always
by the river two banks connected by Westminster Bridge and both the Sun
and the Moon readily available to bring the world and weather to me
during day and night where the oceans send their gifts of tides
germinated from the love between the moon and earth and that was where I
located myself and started waiting for my Belle, for my Timean Maid, my
Timean Soul and that was where I begun to build my Taj Mahal for my
Belle.
Since I made a home in the Big Ben people began call me Big Ben. I only
ring the Belle. That is when I started to ring the Belle you see, I have
been ringing my Belle, long before she came to ring mine!
I would come down of my Tower and walk across the Bridge and go to the
southside of the river and sit by the flowing river thinking of my
Belle. I would talk to her and imagine things and place and make things
in my head for her, beautiful thoughts, beautiful images, wonderful
songs and wondrous melodies and I would build a Taj Mahal every sun lit
days and every moon lit nights and wait for my Belle.
One moon lit night in the year of the bloom, the year of the supernova,
the year of the blessings of Eternity, my Belle came and found me at my
Taj Mahal that I had been building for her. I looked at her and I simply
forgot what or who I was. I was now the river in her ocean and we simply
became one and nothing but one!
Since then, you see, I feel whole now, a whole and nothing but a whole
each being the reason for other’s bloom and the reason for our being.
And each and every hour we ring each other’s bells. I ring to her all
the odd hours and she rings all the evens. She wanted to ring the odd
hours but I wanted her to bring in the new year and thus I insisted that
she rang the even hours.
And this is why I wanted to talk to you, you see. You people keep
calling our home the Big Ben but is no longer Big Ben it ought to be Big
Belle, you see, for this Tower, this home is part of the Taj Mahal I
built on both side of the river across the Bridge for my Timean Maid,
for my Timean Soul, for my Belle, my beautiful Belle, for my wondrous,
my magnanimous, my Eden Eye, my Edenium, Imsonium Belle.
Thus, I ask you to take this task for me, please, please do not refuse
it, take it to the world of this little place that you call England and
tell the people that live there that this is a tiny place, wondrous a
place and that it looks even more awesome being part of the whole and do
tell them that I have built this Taj Mahal for my Astounding Belle as a
token of my love for her and I would like everyone to change the name of
Big Ben and call this home of Time Beautiful Belle. Let me tell you
this, I will still be ringing the Belle and she will still be ringing
the Ben for you that is nothing but our love and love is the eternal sun
at the centre of the universe and where there are lights and love is the
ultimate lights, you can never stay in the dark. Let everyone know that
the Timean Maid forever brings for them their new year as waves of the
gifts of Eternity in a shrunk rose that holds petals of possibilities in
the form of days and nights held together in and by love. She brings in
love, she welcomes in imsonium. Let everyone that comes here go home
taking a piece of our souls that is now one, an onadia soul; eternally
and, let everyone sing imsonium in their body, mind and soul as soon as
they hear Beautiful Belle or I ring in an hour or a year for all that
you need to know is nothing but the reason of the bloom, the reason of
the being: mine is the Belle and I give you her infinite beauty and her
awesome brilliance, her magnanimous mind, her astounding sonar coral
foundation, the breathtaking magnificence of her soul that will shine
in this place as long as matters bloom, motions sing, times roll, lights
flow and darkness magnetises. I give you my soul’s iminsarine, I give
you my soul, my Belle, my Beautiful Belle. Call her the Beautiful Belle
and when you call her out listening to her sonar bloom she will make you
rise like an ocean, light like the moon, sing like the high-tide Thames,
roam in the sky like the majestic eagles, run like magnifirerious
horses, play like the human-spring children, open like the buds of a
rose, close like the silence in the dew-wrapped jasmine night and love
like Romeo and Juliet! Call my Beautiful Belle and you are an imsonium
for she is a flowing glowing shining rising melting tilting swinging
sliding riding slithering soulsamine Beautiful Belle!
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The Place for the Dot
This high tide is now receding and the waters that had
brought the silts and soul of the sea to the lands, now deposited the
desired wealth and it is now receding; becoming a pregnant gold colour,
impregnated by the land’s and people’s left over touches and, it all now
flows downhill. I sit beneath Westminster Bridge bridging the broken
poles and pillars of my disarrayed thoughts. People are peopling the
place, busy battering their cameras with photos that one day will be the
only thing that remains of their past that they will look and probably
will not remember the moments that they once lived.
The Romanian musician took a hold under the bridge and
played beautifully and I sit listening to the music of receding river’s
waves hitting the wall and the music coming from under the bridge. It is
almost tangible that I sit in an arch made of the music flowing from my
back and the music rising from my front: man’s and God’s, two rising
over me, two arches crossing each other, place me inside their beauty’s
bound. I feel part of the peace and I looked at the water hitting this
wall that invited in the river forming a letter I and this I rises on
each ends onto steps that rise up greened by water-fed moss forming
another green I on the grey wall. I look at the waters that are now only
waves rising and hitting the wall and the steps and the sounds that they
make are almost like the sounds of trains when they slow down
approaching stations. These waves, these sounds, these pieces of peace,
in which I am a part, begin to thicken in a beautiful spread over a
glistening darkness that opens up an avenue on which I now walk: in the
dark looking for a train, looking for the train that runs like a rising
metaphor of music crafted in motion’s flows over the silence and
chandelier-darkness.
The train runs on a spread out elastic-rubber band of
hours cutting an invisible snake-river over the dark-damp earth, night’s
cool air and glistening dark space spreading sounds of hissing
ceaselessly vibrating the spread of thick sleepy darkness spreading and
rising as though knitting a wave-circled cloth of some magnificence. The
only sound is the train, the only line is the train, the only motion is
the train, the only awake is the train, the only movement and music is
the train; the rest of the world is the celestial festival of darkness.
The sky non existent as everything is engulfed in an eclipse of dark. In
the absence of lights the matters that move away against the train’s
speed look deeper shades of dark thus villages, trees and the vegetation
appear darker art works over a another dark canvas all standing static
and still.
This still that drank silence till the train appears with
its speedy running forward with the direction of ahead in its driver’s
sleepy head. The dark is the firefly-dance of a different kind of
lights. The air seems like air-aqua: cool and almost silk-moist on the
face. I sit by the window let the speed-flown air comb my hair that
flows backwards, a dark-hair spring over my dark head; I keep looking
out where dark moves against dark almost like two dark lines travelling
against each other and they meet, greet and says good bye at the same
time. The window appears a connecting port hole and I look through the
darkness deeply bewitched by the magic of this expressive delights of
things as they are and in which this silence knits this peace, pieces of
which fit in so beautifully, almost like a lower case i where the dot
stands floating over the main little line of the letter! I drink the
pieces at this window as though I was the Sub Saharan Desert sands and
feel a burning desire to join in the pieces of the peace being the dot
over the body of the lower case letter i and fit perfectly beautifully.
I was at that point in time, Dhaka bound, on the
intercity train that ran like poetry of motion’s signature signed in by
motion’s glorious flowing ink in the dark slate through the countryside
night-ride where night was what beauty might be: a song of serenity’s
awesome tree spread over the horizon. The whole sky is eaten away into
this dark tree that now holds all in a serengeti of beautiful darkness.
Darkness flows down over the river as the clouds thickens
over head and the music now has stopped. I keep looking at the waters
hitting the wall still making these beautiful sounds making music that
rises and embraces me like a sonar vine. I still think of the train that
runs on a spread out elastic-rubber band of hours cutting an invisible
snake-river over the dark-damp earth, night’s cool air and glistening
dark space spreading sounds of hissing ceaselessly vibrating the spread
of thick sleepy darkness spreading and rising as though knitting a
wave-circled cloth of some magnificence. The only sound is the train,
the only line is the train, the only motion is the train, the only awake
is the train, the only movement and music is the train; the rest of the
world is the celestial festival of darkness. The sky non existent as
everything is engulfed in an eclipse of dark. In the absence of lights
the matters that move away against the train’s speed look deeper shades
of dark thus villages, trees and the vegetation appears darker art works
over another dark canvas all standing static and still. I imagine
hearing a call, a voice, a note, calling me: Come in, here is the place
for the dot!
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If I were to tell you a made up story, a story that could build a seven
storey building of lights standing on waters of the river that rises and
falls twice a day carrying the moon floating inside her as a silver
pulsating eye of the sky, quivering to rise up and go home again; would
you believe in the truth of it? Would you not scream that such a thing
can not possibly be fathomed out of human ingenuity! Would you please
for a second stop wearing that armour of cynicism, stop breathing in
this cyanide of the market and let me tell you this story, this story
that will rise you to the spectre where you can only touch spectacles
and become an oracle of the impossible that is simply a word for people
who are scared to broaden their ability to touch and see. You see, there
is no such thing, in this thingsful universe, that lacks a starting
point or end for that material matter, in such a tiny word, she is
infinite in her spread and breadth and depth and scope and skips and
ships and waves and tides both high and low! Thus, you see, in the
infinite matter of infinite numbers of variables anything is a
possibility where there can be a song for every single photon that ever
dances out into being either an element or a wave compounding the joy of
colours and lights both the garden and the flowers that grow over the
spread of darkness.
Now that I have offered you a truce-element and that I am hoping somehow
you will haul yourself to silence and sincerely sit still and let me
tell you this story where you will have to undo a lot of things that
clasp you and shape you into a tiny little hive-cubicle in a beehive.
You see, you think of map, you think of marks and make up and even
though they are made up, you believe in them more than you do in
yourself.
I urge you to abandon any notion of such things for they are irrelevant
in this tale I am going to tell you which is going to take you places,
places where magic is not only possible but real as real as your reading
this. Don’t you see the magic in this fact that you are reading this
story with your eyes looking at these letters organised in such an order
and then somehow you are able to decipher what these letters mean and
then you make sense of things and form judgements about them? Why do you
not consider this a miracle?
Yet let us carry on with this can of ours that will draw out the silver
water watering the garden of our imagination. Let us first of all shape
these ideas and let us begin at the beginning. You see, in our head it
has been stamped in and solidified that everything is flat or three
dimensional. But in a space that is multidimensional there cannot be
three dimensions. Dimensions there are infinite in numbers for this
universe goes on in every possible directions and dimensions that we
cannot possibly fathom out for the fact that we can only knit finite
amount of wool with our finite number of hands and fingers and neurons!
Hence, here is the hide-out for us: abandon this misconception that we
have to be on land that has an end where the sea begins and it is full
of water and it rises and falls in high and low tide! The ocean is not
floating only on earth on grounds! Ocean is the Universe and these
matter-made materials-sung things that are played in the orchestra of
perpetual motion and elaboration of expansions, rises and falls, births
and deaths taking shape constantly that we call stars and planets and
moons etc are nothing but islands made of matters and they are floating
not in space but imagine space-water that is filled with darkness water
which is the mother magnetism of things and nothing on which everything
flourishes. Thus all these matter-islands face the shore of eternity
that sends out the high and low tide in different waters: in lights, in
darkness, in sonar energy, in rays, in radio waves, in anti-matters
hardly understood mechanics, the darkness-magnetism that is beyond even
imagination that feeds the space and the whole spectacle; and in many
other ways of high and low tides that we do not understand yet and even
if we carry on understanding more of these things, we will forever
understand little for subtracting from the infinite you may never reduce
anything from it! In our little human logic this might not make initial
sense but for our numbers, even if infinite, must have some end to it!
But infinite does not have an end or beginning even!
Thus here we are then! We are at the shore of eternity facing in every
possible direction always receiving the high and low tide and both offer
us opportunities to rejuvenate ourselves and learn and live more, touch
and reach more, ring and sing wide and run and risk further.
These utopias, these made up mess of countries, of nations, of
nationalities, of this and that and so on and so forth are irrelevant.
We are one, the whole one and nothing but one and so long this one is
where we are we are the bloom.
Thus let me carry on telling you this story that I was going to tell
you, a made up story, a story that could build a seven storey building
of lights standing on waters of the river that rises and falls twice a
day carrying the moon floating inside her as a silver pulsating eye of
the sky, quivering to rise up and go home again; would you believe in
the truth of it? Would you not scream that such a thing can not possibly
be fathomed out of human ingenuity! Even if you do not believe me, I
know, this story, this building this seven storey building of lights,
standing on waters of the river that rises and falls twice a day
carrying the moon floating insider her as a silver pulsating eye of the
sky, quivering to rise up and go home again, is stuck in your head and
you cannot forget about it and so long you cannot forget about it I hope
you carry on singing these notes: we are one, the whole one and nothing
but the one and this light will take you to the shore of eternity and
stand you face up to the whole that exists outside us: the tiny faced
the infinite and there, that is where this story begins and you are to
write it! Do
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